你很愛他

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TG9L4CJpOgs

wishes for this christmas

- to have my psychotic illness cured

- to have a part-time job

- to have my proposal accepted by her?

叱咤风云

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=id3a3vp3zjQ&feature=related

出人头地

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zOrW-fr2XSs&feature=related

wishes

- white christmas (to travel to japan and experience it)



- go to nz and taiwan

- to be a good person

- to be :) everyday

- study a course (i.e medicine, Digital Media or Counselling) that I want

- to have a profession (i.e doctor, IT engineer or counsellor) that I want

倔強

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLlY_rW9-mU&NR=1

favourties

- chocolate

- nintendo ds

- nike

- reading materials including life-principles book, bible and newspaper etc.

- graphical cartoons including dragonball, gundam and spiderman etc.

- happy memories

Genesis 1:20‑21 "And God said, "Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the expanse of the sky." So God created the great creatures of the sea and every living and moving thing with which the water teems, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And God saw that it was good."

三个心愿

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hyokDsJx7SY

my hobbies

- surfing the net

- reading

- reflections

- soccer

- travel to explore more. i would like to travel to taiwan, japan and nz.

- learning new things

- listening to songs

- teevee

- sms

- playing games, including on my nintendo ds

http://www.gettyimages.com/Home.aspx

http://looneytunes.kidswb.com/

my life

it isnt a bed of roses for me since exempted from national service. i have to work in order to survive through working at DHL, Popular, Tech Hwa, SingTel and Watsons. its through agency and no doubt about it, working life is hard.

unless you have passion doing this, you are wasting your time. i really hope to get a permanent job soon to ease my financial burden. whatever i earned is just sufficient. i need a regular pay in order to save up.

i really hope to work @ school to be a counsellor.

the earth is ugly

travel

i didnt really travel much and the furthest i have been is just malaysia. pulau tioman is a nice place to be, genting is not that bad while KL is just another version of singapore. as compared to malaysia, in my opinion, singapore is a much better place to live in. it is safe and the necessities are met. some malays in malaysia are lazy, because the government simply feed them with the necessities that they spoilt them.

i regard travelling as a form of learning point. when we travel far, we learn how the place is different from singapore.

i would like to travel to japan and new zealand. japan is modern, while new zealand offers natural beauty.

i wonder...

living in the city is a totally different experience as compared to living in a countryside.

singapore is a good place to live, in my opinion, provided you are contented and willing to save up money. there is jobs for almost every people. the basic needs (housing, food etc.) are catered to everyone. however, you got to face the politics during working enviroment which i personally believed that everyone hate it. being at the working enviroment, you got to see the ugly side of people. its quite sad to say that you got to be selfish as its all about the survival of the fittest. one will fall and one will stand.

countryside is a relaxing place to be by leading a simple life. humans can only be happy through contention.

given a chance, i would like to be living at the countryside. i even have thoughts about migrating to new zealand when i retired!

preserve is the key

i've seen so much people nowadays. a lot of them just want to take the easy path in life to succeed, in other words, they are materialistic. its not the 5Cs that matter most in life, but rather being happy and your characteristics. when in some point of life, you will learn about it and i just get to know faster than most people at the tender age of 21.

by the way, there are two rules in life. they are simply being straight and humble, rather than proud.

i wont be blogging much unless theres something i really want to share with u all. so there wont be any entries until i see the need to express my thoughts.

cheers!

happy chinese new year to all!!

read it

http://www.globalissues.org/TradeRelated/Poverty.asp

difficulty

life is tough, i got to admit it.

a lot of times in life, you just cannot get what you want. being a counsellor, its just the choice for me. upon making the decision to get a pes f, meaning that i wont need to serve the nation anymore, the chances of becoming one is much lesser if i were to stay on and serve. there are 3 reasons why i choose to quit it. i am not that happy and i dun really know how to do the job scope. lastly, sometimes it would be better if i quit.

my illness is just another thing that is bothering me. sometimes, it would be better but on the other hand, it might just get worst. every morning and on the night, i will just swallowed the medicine and every month, i got to have injection. until the doctor said that i can stopped all these steps, i will just have to do the standard procedure.

this is a personal blog of mine, and i only let few readers read it. haha. just few free to add comments to my entries, thks!

tired

its been a long time since i blogged.

i m just feeling tired at the moment, facing obstacles after obstacles. not only that i am tired, a lot of people around me are feeling it too. just in case that if you are feeling tired, i will give you the moral support.

for me, i would just like to lead a simple and happy life, with a home of my own.

merry christmas and happy new year to all!

life

life is an opportunity, benefit from it
life is a beauty, admire it
life is a bliss, taste it
life is a dream, realize it
life is a challenge, meet it

life is a duty, complete it
life is a dream, play it
life is a promise, fulfill it
life is a sorrow, overcome it
life is a song, sing it

life is a struggle, accept it
life is a tragedy, confront it
life is an adventure, dare it

life is too precious, do not destroy it
life is life, fight for it

usual day

i'll juz post something short because there isnt much to type out. on the afternoon, i went to grandma's house. afterwards, i meet desmond and zhiyong. had dinner wiz them, shopped after eating at bugis. went to starbucks to have a drink later. reached home when its near to 12.

btw, i m still considering what christmas gifts to get for u all. let me know if u can think of any?

back again

to keep u all updated, i gone back to SP on ytd. when i was at there, i saw many lecturers i knew but heard 2 lecturers have retired. my days at SP is tough, been through alot of challenges. without these obstacles, i cannot get this far. it makes me grow up. i was studying a course that doesnt interest me at all, cuz i failed my english in the "o" level. thinking back, the only regret that i did was not to enjoy my tertiary education.

during this coming christmas, i will get something for u all. be it that u r friends i made throughout my schling yrs or simply juz people i made in the army wiz juz short span of time, i hope to brighten ur days.

for the rest of my life, i will be happy.

recovery

i must recover from depression

its all depend on me

who else in the world won't want to be healthy? being sick with depression, i have a simple wish which is to recover.

my condition isnt that gd. neither its that bad. its all in the mindset, which is to lead a normal life and yet, letting everything take its natural path.

if everything goes well, the amount of medication and injection will decrease once i enter the society.

i am very unsure to how to take the first step.

what i want in life

in this life, what i wanted is very simple. i just hope to have few true friends, a person whom i love alot and yes, she loves me a lot. other than that, i want to be happy, humble and straight. my long-time dream is achived, being a good counsellor.

even though its simple dreams, its hard to achieve. a lot of things in life is fate, and i'll just let nature led the way.

i hope to get the chance to ask you out. right from the start, i am too shy to do anything. after what you had said, "got future, no hope", i realised it is time that i started to do something. although i am not that romantic, whatever i said come from my heart. i hope to share your joys and sorrows.

the week

this is quite a slack week for me in the army.

on the mon, i juz did my usual stuff on activating events n e-deferment. afterwards, i left the place on the afternoon as i applied for half day off. had an enjoynable chat wiz ms christina. its kinda suprise when we chatted, its drizzling. ms christina said that heaven was crying.

on the tues, go for live run on the morning. as usual, i was late. then did my usual stuff then fold letter etc.

on the wed, rehearsal for the cheerleading at sembawang camp. was very boring. i left the place at 3 plus, shd b. took warren jerry's car to the road near my home.

on the thurs, morning did the usual stuff. then accompany mdm teow to shopped at imm. bought quite a lot of bottles for the prizes of ns man.

on the fri, was actually doing the cheerleading for the lst anniversary of csscom. if i got the photo, i will posted up here to show u the dressing i worn on that day. saw kelvin tan and qili at safti.

on the sat, it was damn sian. reached sembawang camp early on the morning by the car of ms ng's husband. the mobilisation was not activated, then took mervyn's car to amk there makan. they all left the place after eating while i went to amk hub n shopped.

grabbing every chance

sometimes in life, chances only come o.n.c.e. grab it.

from my heart

why do girls hope to have a guy of their own? its because naturally, they want to be loved, protected and secured by that particular person.

if i were to fall in love with a girl, a good and compatible one, i would want to marry her.

psp

should i get it this christmas? give me some suggestions by commenting, k?

听妈妈的话

小朋友 你是否有很多问号 为什么别人在那看漫画
我却在学画画 对著钢琴说话
别人在玩游戏 我却靠在墙壁背我的 ABC 我说我要一个大大的飞机 但却得到一台旧旧答录机
为什么要听妈妈的话 长大后你就会开始懂了这段话 长大后我开始明白 为什么我跑得比别人快
飞得比别人高 将来大家看的都是我画的漫画
大家唱的都是我写的歌
妈妈的辛苦不让你看见 外面的事不在她心里面
有空就去多握握她的手 把手牵着一起梦游 听妈妈的话 别让她受伤
想快快长大 才能保护她
美丽的白发 幸福总发芽
天使的魔法 温暖中慈祥 在你的未来 音乐是你的王牌
拿王牌谈个恋爱 爱我不想把你教坏
还是听妈妈的话吧 晚点再恋爱吧
我知道你未来的路 当妈比我更清楚 你会看着学习的同学在这会写东写西 但我建议你最好写
妈妈我会用功读书 用功读书怎么会从我嘴巴说出
不想你输 所以要教你用功读书
妈妈织给你的毛衣你要好好的收着
因为不知道时我会告诉他我还留着
对了 我会遇到周润发
所以你可以跟同学炫耀赌神未来是你爸爸 我找不到童年写的情书 你千万不要承认
因为我了解你会照着纸上学的
你也会开始自己会唱流行歌 因为张学友开始准备唱吻别 听妈妈的话 别让她受伤
想快快长大 才能保护她
美丽的白发 幸福总发芽
天使的魔法 温暖中慈祥 听妈妈的话 别让她受伤
想快快长大 才能保护她 长大后我开始明白 为什么我跑得比别人快
飞得比别人高 将来大家看的都是我画的漫画
大家唱的都是我写的歌
妈妈的辛苦不让你看见 外面的事不在她心里面
有空就去多握握她的手 把手牵着一起梦游 听妈妈的话 别让她受伤
想快快长大 才能保护她
美丽的白发 幸福总发芽
天使的魔法 温暖中慈祥

a tiring day

its a tiring day on today.

i woke up late, supposedly to reach smu at 11am to help out michele for the survey on her project. we are to be at a room and will be surveyed by her group. i reached the room at around 11:50am. i was there wondering what was going on, and i just pretented i know what is going on. after a while, the thingy was ended.

the ice-cream that was bought for the survey was given to the rgs' girls. they were all smiles when they received the gift. there is an exhibtion going on. afterwards, michele and 2 of her friends and i have lunch togther. the rental for each store at the kopitiam is damn expensive, costing around 7,ooo dollars per month. i was there talking jokes and they had a good laugh. lastly, we left the place and we all took michele's car towards each destination.

i had a sleep, feeling really great when i woke up. i met qing huang and justin for dinner at the newly-opened japanese store at the basement of lot 1. the food is below average, i think. zhiyong's home is really messy. however, it was a great experience playing his PSP slim. i am still wondering whether to get one. haha. i went home and went for a run afterwards. the run really made me feel more refreshed.

thanks for reading this entry. i must say its quite long-winded.

dont rely on others

if someone helps you from his heart, he must be a good person

the way of life

i am now 20 years old. At times, i do ask myself what occupation i want to have, whether i want to continue my education, how i should treat others ...

all along in my life, my parents hoped that i will be a good person, being straight. no matter where you go, there will be rotten eggs. being at such a enviroment, you have to be calm and yet, putting up a show.

after ns, most probably, i will be working and studying at the same time. its not easy to answer the quesiton on treating others. if i were to meet a good person, i will help her.

do remember to comment, and be tactful!

third stage of depression

my depression is near to recovery. currently, i am taking omega-3 and doing exercise at least twice a week. however, i am not ready to take up stress. if i am too stress, i will just "忍" and let it out by telling people around me what had happened. with regular medication, my condition will recover. now, it is only 80 percent recovered.

even though my condition had recovered, i still have to go for monthly injection to prevent the occurence of depression. my medication will stop by then.

i was feeling great when the doctor told me that my medication will stop soon!

second stage of depression

i always think on unnecessary stuffs. i hated people saying that i got depression. i dislike taking medicine. i cried out of nothing, sometimes thinking of commiting suicide. i had to be posted out of ammo base because of my weird nature. i cannot be stressed out because my illness can be worsened, therefore being accused at kranji camp for doing nothing.

sometimes, i screamed out at kranji camp because i cannot tolerate the stress level there. i know the condition can only be improved under non-stressful enviroment.

initial stage of depression

This is to inform you that Mr Chia has been on outpatient follow-up here since 27 May 2006 for a diagnosis of Acute Psychosis.

He presented with talking to himself, irrelevant speech, persecutory delusions and auditory hallucinations of 2 months duration, accompanied by suicidal thoughts.

With outpatient treatment and anti-psychotic medication, his symptoms have shown improvement, and he has been relatively symptom-free the past 2 months.

Currently, he is continues to require outpatient treatment and pharmacotherapy.

I recommend that he be restricted to non-combat duties and excused from firearms on his enlistment into National Service.

Please contact me if you have any queries

how did i fall in love with you

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greetingstoall !!

hey everyone!! warmest welcome to my blog.

its been a roller-coasting year for me, but i still managed to hang on. its really a tough stage to recover from depression, however, with the support of my parents and few friends in particular (yanxiu, shunfa, josephine), my illness is near to recovery. a huge thank you to all of you! pardon me if i were to miss out anyone, k? haha, i am looking foward to the trip with yanxiu to vietnam on the coming year.

to conclude this posting, be happy!